Force of Nature

I made it up to the second 

level of the staircase,

at least a step further 

than I passed by yesterday

where I sunk inside of the 

sofa and my thoughts were 

congealed together as if 

they were made into a puree

I’d picture a dove outside of the window,

I’d see myself as one flying away

that would be until I’m captured 

and eaten by the birds of prey

When will the time be for me to transform 

into a butterfly out of my cocoon?

Is it too late to bloom or am I 

wanting to change too soon?

it’s the start of October and the 

leaves are beginning to fall

I’m being bitten by mosquitos, 

they make a bold statement 

though they appear to be small

like my words, they've been 

festering into an outraged riot

hopelessly wanting to unravel 

the heartstrings and to untie it

I ran across the sand as my 

nerves felt the heated sensation,

the rest of my body was stone 

cold from lamentation

a force of nature can put 

you under sedation by

keeping you grounded or 

enlightening your mentation

flushed across my nose, I smiled so big

that I noticed the dimple on my cheek

there's only one that indents on the left 

side of my face and I think it's pretty neat

it's just like those seashells in the ocean, 

each one of them distinct and unique

I desperately want to go back and sunbathe

as the supernatural is surrounding me

until then, I’ll 

take my umbrella,

my roses, and my fairy 

to a place where I feel safe because 

it’s my body that I will forever carry

and if I choose to give these 

gifts to another soul, 

I’ll analyze whether they have a 

heart of dark coal or of fine gold, 

not to anyone that will encase my 

heart like the rest they've stole

and keep it on display to go

unattended while they

watch it slowly decompose

- Leah Rae