Reality Check
some days, I'll get angry faster
than a pin dropping to the floor
as if a knife peeled away
the layer over my heart
and the pain made me yell,
“I can’t take this anymore!”
thinking about it
makes my blood boil,
like the molecules in the water
have been mixed with hot oil
it makes my vocal chords
swell up with word vomit
and I spit out all the wrong
things I don’t want to admit
some days, I can get sad as quickly
as a dog yelps if you step on its tail
like how a train shrieks if
it goes abruptly off the rail
how badly I yearn to tell my soul
that this is not who you really are
you've just been dealt
some unlucky cards
after the blackout, I can
hear everything echo back
my thoughts peril as
I'm opening the tabs
how desperately I wish
I could stop myself,
but the feelings won't hesitate
to openly express themselves
how badly I want to say,
they didn’t mean it and
it’s okay to soften
up the rough edges
the overthinking
is all in your head,
calm down your
apprehensiveness
there is a simple cure,
a needed reality check
take some time for yourself,
this is your period to reflect
- Leah Rae