LRAE Poetry

I check to see again if her eyes are  looking back at me maybe the made  up stories are true that’s how I’ll know  if all of it is really you and when I turn my head,  your eyes may reveal I promise I won't be scared, I just need the answers to heal the empty castle is haunting, the grim reaper  roams in his stalking I lock all the doors  behind me yet the scent always  comes through sometimes its clean laundry and other times it’s strawberries, but if I tell this to anyone  else,  would they all think I’m crazy? I trace my fingers over her initials in thoughtful engraving and I can feel her energy,  like she’s right there  sitting next to me I watched her transform  into pink flames as she disappeared, a void  caved inside of my brain sometimes I meet people  who have your name and I want to tell them  how  I know a spirit as  kind  and caring as you are how I wish I could do anything to...

goosebumps as I  walk up the steps there were two  knocks  coming from  underneath  my bed I heard your voice  whisper in my head and watched the  memories reappear again I don't know where I will land without you I am lost in my thoughts  trying to reason how  this came about too trying to keep my mind strong, a part of me is constantly broken  the wounds are invisible,  but the struggle is still showing How do heroines  become invincible when it's their own pain  that's the most difficult battle? - Leah Rae

I went looking for the hidden place that collected souls once I found it, I asked to  find one with a heart of gold the keeper found one that met  my needs and gave me the secret  you’ll have a hard time letting go, but you  need respect, loyalty, and love to keep it this soul was the most  beautiful one I’ve seen spoke with heart and  the eyes shined of green I fell in love instantly and promised  there’d never be a day we won’t be as we embarked on the path,  we saw many new and magical things we stuck together, trying to keep our  souls protected through everything our soul’s recognition to each other  felt real and purer than anything as we treaded through the difficult times,  there were two broken souls inside the blue soul lifted me up by my  wings and encouraged us to fly, the pink soul stayed strong and  kept trying to heal it with time the pink soul gave the blue soul  all she could ...

one may  need to recollect and have a few  moments of peace when you reflect on  the space inside  of your head, silence is all you need we all take care  of the same planet and cross paths  into  eternal flight change your environment, rearrange your  surroundings, and transform overnight visit more  opportunities  throughout  a city practice what  you preach, always create  meaning towards the  small events that shape  our everyday you are exactly who you are because of the  places you stay these destinations  represents  more than a  materialistic store revisit the  first places  you’ve traveled to since you were born endless blessings for life, you can always create  new experiences and  meet a friend design goals or ideas,  spark up your motivation, taste the new flavors of going somewhere you’ve never been that feeling...

I’m stumbling into  the next stage of grief, this process makes  me  realize more each day one of the biggest  lessons I’ve learned, you need to make time  for your loved ones their friendship  you must earn, and make sure they  know you care for them we’ve all been  going through it, not too late to ask, "How have you been?" even if you don’t see  any  fresh wounds,  we all need a first aid kit they may need a  simple bandaid,  or someone who  can  thread their  stitches never forget that  they're still existing,  you were on my mind  everyday,  the thought only grew  when we were astray and now it’s too late to  see you again,  time wasn’t on  my side back then I try not to hold  so  much regret, reminiscing on  the days  we were best friends grieving leads to  unbearable  pain and weeping the repressed thoughts  about the...

fell down  on  my face chest is close to the ground on a walk in  the park, let's go another time  around you're still  here, living  in my head and I'm in  denial,  with  every last  tear I shed,  inside the  branches  of my mind, the  words are  like  crawling kids,  growing up, and  losing  track  of time every flower  those  leaves  bloom into  lead me back to my friendship with you I urge that distant memory  to reappear I ask you what your cat’s name  was in mid air wondering if it’ll ever reach my  thoughts again I would've  done anything for you best friend hoping there'd  be  one more day we could have  another  picnic like  we  did back in May I would buy  you  anything  you  like   and   all   your favorite treats crying out to you  because it’s the  only way ...

as my inner child  looks up to me, I can only warn her  of  all the things yet to be, she holds me like  her favorite bear I make a promise to her  that I will always be there making sure that she  laughs at funny moments, that she believes in herself, and deep down knows it I tell her, it’s  not  going  to be easy, but you  will be okay even if it doesn’t  go  as expected,  you can try again  everyday my inner child speaks quietly, in my heart,  she's living  there and guiding me she said “I wish  we could've  taken  it all in more, instead of locking  myself behind all  those closed doors. I am so curious  to explore,  but have become  fragile to the core.” now, you  stay at home and off grid, you were once an  independent  kid my precious inner child,  Where have you  planted yourself? over here thawing your  brain like a wax melt ...

nothing to do  with the  act everything to do  with the  moment if I were you, I would’ve   known that there’s  nothing  I'd do  that  would  hurt  you and by  doing  that to me when  you  swore  on   how  different it  will be I've had to  heal  and let  some issues go because you're  all  I have,  you  are my home I've stayed  and  kept to our vision talk it out, calm down, and listen the big  city  picture  ahead   holding  onto  me  while  we lay in bed if you witness   your  greatest fear you'll still be in  shock in every  thought, and every  year you become  indisposition of what life  has geared  holding  onto  your patience while it's  causing  your heart to erupt say what you  need to say then, hang up if you were trea...

for change,  we will  take risks pondering  what the  outcome is  listening and  r emembering trauma creates  s hort term  memory it's like a fever dream quiet, until  someone  looks into  my eyes,   then, they’ll  see the  soul of me thinking about walking away  from things  that have  no  purpose  they're serving Who can you  talk to when  t hey aren’t around? to these  strangers  in the crowd,  reaching out,  asking for help if I get closer,  I can hear the  heart weeping and I see it  deep  down,  you too are hurting - Leah Rae