When I Loved
with you, I could
exist as my own
in your arms, in your
warmth, I felt at ease
and unashamed for my
affections to be shown
I miss you, although
its since been years
I still wonder
why you left,
even now I can’t
hold back my tears
the grief
keeps on
the memories I hold
are longly foregone
you were the only
one I’ve ever loved,
but I didn't have
the will to save us
I let you be
by yourself,
there’s nothing
left to discuss
I’ve dreamed about
receiving closure
shedding light to truth,
a relief by its exposure
but I knew that if
I wasn't wanted,
I would
have to go
I have yet to be
fully healed,
heartache is tragic
for a scorpio
maybe I didn’t have
enough to offer,
maybe I became too
much to handle,
we both changed in
different ways
my heart became
more fragile
I've lost sense of myself,
who I am at my core,
If you read this, would you
carry me back safe to shore?
- Leah Rae