LRAE Poetry

there is a rhythm  that beats on my skull it sounds off its waves  in  the force of my soul this rhythm speaks like a  treasurable  heart of a gold this is my passion, this is  why I must break the mold I will slow down the  tempo like adagio and  reveal  myself  from  hiding in these  shadows I will play with the  words  to  synthesize, and empathize  with the same delicacy like the wings  of butterflies I am not to be  lost in my dreams, I will see them  in the physical,  to make it would  be a miracle, but this is my meaning,  this life is rhythmical  in it's elements of  strength and weakness, I will go down living   out my true purpose - Leah Rae

I woke up today  with clear skin,  I feel relieved al though I still  can’t  take back  the pen ink I  tattooed on myself  way back when I was born with an angel  kiss on my forehead, the doctor said it would  go away eventually, and it did I told myself, I  can't  live like this, so I changed my mindset to be lovely from within my mom would  try to cover it up  with makeup for  the school photos I thought of myself  as a failed product in the factory  of dominos I know there will always be something wrong,  whether it’s that  my teeth are  spotty  or my nose seems crooked,  I broke all the mirrors in my  house  just so that I’d stop looking I've learned that acne is  a curse and a blessing, it lets you redeem yourself  by focusing on your personality  what’s on the skin don’t  mean a thing,  think of your acne like the  flowers that bloom in s...

stranger from  a distance, I don't know you,  and  you  don't  know  me,  despite  our existence I wonder how  eloquently  you  speak,  or  how  beautifully you think I wonder how much ice  you like in your drink, or if your  blushed  skin turns rosy pink whether or not you  see in small detail, whether or not you care  about the things you feel stranger from a distance, I know about you, and  you know about me,  despite the resistance  I wonder how  much we're alike, or how you're doing,  are you alright? I wonder if you glow  in ultraviolet light, and if you treat people  respectfully, are you polite? stranger from a distance,  we may never meet again I wonder if you'd be  willing  to come  over here  and  be my friend - Leah Rae

to the elephant that lives in my chest, I'm sorry to say,  but you  must  find someplace  else to rest, the elephant says  we need each other  because everyone  needs someone to love,  s o I said I'd protect them  and that would be enough the elephant  begged of me "Please, you can't take  me back  to the circus,  it's all for show,  there is no fun!" the elephant and I,  the closer we become the closer I am  to reaching the  day when all  comes undone I can’t live without the elephant,  and they can’t go  on without me but the larger it  grows, the less  air I have in my lung’s capacity some days are  easier, but today  feels  the hardest to breathe I know that  I'm the one  who must   c arry them, so I will keep  hiding  the elephant  underneath - Leah Rae

everything is  candy  striped,  sweet like bubblegum pink what you see on the outside does  not match up with what you think sitting by the lake  with  our strawberry drinks in this moment, I could spit out all my  secrets to you like you're a human diary for once, I am not fulfilled  by unnecessary worries in this moment, I don't feel  real,  this  must be a fantasy If this was reality, then why does  the sky  taste like this box of strawberry milk tea? - Leah Rae

see their ink and  read  into their story put the pictures together  and respect their territory they have indigo eyes  with hazel in the middle people around them are scared, but their  energy is something sent from the eternal Dear Indigo eyes, do scarlet eyes  try  to kill you with their gaze?   your emotions intensify that it  puts you into a head high haze,  it shoots at you like a pistol, when they ask too much of you,  then say your sweetness is artificial know they  seize to see that  you’ve  come  from a cave of made of moonstone crystal,   and that you have protection  written on your neck as a symbol you were raised as  a cub in an igloo, then released for the world  to see your everlasting blue scarlet eyes,  indigo soul,  hidden underground  in a small shop in Seoul they bring no evil, but when  they pass by, others are fearful one’s own idea of beauty  ma...

If I was a flower,  would  I help you breathe?  If you were out and about would you stop to pick me?  well, only if  my petals  are soft and pretty and if you happen  to be allergic,  perhaps  I could  transf orm into a tree I wonder, what  do  they think? Like when we pass away,  where does our soul go? Does it appear elsewhere while our bodies  decompose? I don’t want to stay the  same, I want to change I want everyone to  feel alive this way, to listen and let  everyone have a say in the end, all of  us will be gone  our roots that  connect   our  branches are  what  make us strong we've survived through  the wind and the rain, this life itself and  the  mental strain I always think about if  plants  could talk, Would they rise  from their soil  and visit  with me  on my walk? Would they make  a  judgement ...

with you, I could  exist as my own in your arms, in  your   warmth,   I felt at ease  and unashamed for my  affections to be shown I miss you, although   its since been  years I still wonder  why you left,  even  now I can’t  hold back my tears the grief keeps on the memories  I  hold  are longly foregone you were the only  one I’ve ever  loved,  but I didn't have  the  will to  save us I let you be  by  yourself,  there’s nothing left to discuss I’ve dreamed about  receiving closure shedding light to  truth, a relief by its exposure but I knew that  if  I  wasn't wanted, I would  have to go I have yet to be  fully healed, heartache is tragic for a scorpio maybe I didn’t have  enough to offer,  maybe I became too much to handle, we both changed in  different  ways my heart  became more fragile I've l...

some parts of me are stronger than others, break through  my  rough edges  to reveal all  kinds of colors I should've left these  caves undiscovered, disguised like a geode, there's more to than  story than you know they crystallize  within  time a  stone  appears  to  the naked  eye concealing the gems inside, but if you  break it open,  you'll  see where  wisdom lies - Leah Rae

he’s always told me that  I’d never be good enough if I’d stand on  the  edge of  a cliff, he’d be there to  convince  me to jump I trust his  opinions only  because  I've  thought of them  as  his guilty  way of displaying love he’s always  been  there  with me,  he’s made me  grow up tough, but he makes  it  hard for  me  to accept the  way  that I've come I’ve always wanted  to be  somebody else,  and I blame it  on  Mr. Bugs - Leah Rae

the sun arises  in the morning, I’ve had to plead forgiveness  on the light that’s warming up my face in the  blistering cold, my hands so frail they begin to look old as they're swollen and cracked dry I shift my attention and  watch a  fire  burn behind  the mountains in  the early sky I wake up to fading  stars and city lights a drive by them brings  me to a  new  day and I forget about  the past few nights I tempestuously relay the  words in my head  while my left hand  subconsciously  writes my knee guiding the steering  wheel as my mind flashes a thought, almost getting into an accident  with the car in my rear blindspot, but if that was my last moment alive,  at least I got  to  realize that I have to accept the t hings  that  cannot be changed,  I have to look forward  to tomorrow’s sunrise - Leah Rae

I met a goddess who  taught me how to fly, she told me that you can  see a soul by looking into the eyes I met a goddess who showed  me how to make it my own, she sat by a wall of crosses on the breakfast chair she called her throne I met a goddess who  helped me shine,  she took me to cut my hair  and said  that I  would fit the look just right  I had it purple  like royalty,  she dyed a few strands  of her hair  to show that she supported me I met a goddess who ran in the  middle of a horrific scene,  she laid a stranger’s head on her lap in  the middle of the road’s concrete she is somebody who inspires me,  her grace amazes me profoundly I met a goddess who  always got back up even when she  got  pushed down,  she taught me  what it means to unconditionally love  she dances to the beat of  her  own  drum and tilts her head up high she smokes a lot of...