One with Everything

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These beautiful things in life I’ve come to know

You can dress up on a random Wednesday 

And play board games with your friends you got to meet on the weekend

You can meet someone that makes you so incredibly happy

The pain that used to swallow me whole 

It still runs with me and still lives in my bones

Almost like it’s baked in slow cooked and hard to taste

It’s hard to pick out any of the flavors these days

I can’t decide if I’m upset or angry

I just feel everything all at once

But when I look at him and he speaks

Everything and everyone that’s ever caused me pain

Feels worth having gone through

Because I am still alive for this very moment

I am so lucky to be here

And now all I want to do is be happy

I want to see the sun go down everyday

I want to act like a kid again and go outside to play

I want to hum while I’m folding laundry

I want to dance around while I put away dishes

I want everyday to be with him, because up until meeting him

I didn’t want to be here anymore

And I felt so alone

I felt like no one understood me and I felt so out of place 

And I realize that everything that’s ever happened to me feels like an energy

Someone puts down on me

Shining like the brightest light in the galaxy

And I thank you

For letting me see another day

For letting me wake up

And see his beautiful face

Because meeting him

Changed everything for me

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