It is What it Is

it’s the feeling again

it’s the heart racing in my chest again

it’s the beating in my head again

it’s the thoughts fighting battles again

it’s the loss again

it’s the love again

it’s the guilt running thin

it’s my mind’s self destructiveness

it’s the self-criticism 

its the one that got away again

it’s the last thing I think about before I go to sleep again

it’s the breathing in and breathing out again

it’s the one thing I need again

it’s the panic coming back to destroy me again

it’s the euphoria again

it’s the butterflies in my stomach again

it’s the joy in my life again

it’s the hope I have for the future again

it’s the optimism

it's everything I've ever wanted,

it is what it is...

- Leah Rae