LRAE Poetry

to a place that I know,  where I am comfortable no arguments or  harsh words said, no rebuttal where there is my dog  and a bed to rest I’ve been everywhere on the roads,  even survived the airbag test  walking to the park with  overalls and dandelions in my pocket making wishes as I go,  roaming the grass and running frolic  yellow and gold painted before my eyes sipping on strawberry  lemonade skies wrapped around the  culdesac where the sidewalk bends happiness is a virtue,  that’s why my soul depends  on the clouds to keep blowing, ashes in the air,  it’s been so hot that  the ground is scorching  so I pick up my dog or  her feet will be blistered, carry her on my shoulder  the rest of the way,  I feel the poking of her whiskers  thinking to myself,  how many times have  I heard this song?  keep it on repeat because  I want this moment to last long - Leah Rae

you’ve left my limbs frozen  like they’ve been in the back of a refrigerator talk to me like a friend  you’ve known forever,  I’m not a stranger never would I want to  put you in harms way,  I’ll protect you from all danger the trauma always lingers, more times than I could  count on my fingers shiver it away, make it feel better put a compress on my heart  that’s as cold as the glaciers I’ll always leave you  room to speak, I’ll  put  up the spacers but I need you right now,  could you do me a favor? shiver it all away,  wipe the icicles off your face I’ll keep cool just in  case you need someone  there to make you feel safe shiver it away, I give  you time and space  memory can’t be  erased and  I’m sorry, soon it will fade put down the  double edged blade  I promise you,  I will always stay -Leah Rae 

I move mountains  for those in my life,  always have been  loyal to those I love but sometimes I  don’t have anyone  there for me, nobody  with  as thick as my blood I’ve had to hold myself  through the worst, I’ve felt so horrible  that  I thought I was cursed putting in my all, y et  my  back is always covered in stabs how deeply I can feel so good, how deeper I can feel so bad, when I feel my best, it’s  never the best I could feel I’ve always lived in  my dreams because reality doesn’t  seem real I could change  how I look,  take pictures of  my beautiful visions and still get no  response out  of them, Please, could someone finally listen? I have in my palms the Earth  and water,  I have tried to be  the best daughter the best friend,  the best lover, and the mountains  seem  far out of reach, trying to keep  climbing  but my feet are slipping ...

Lioness, coated in diamonds you like to live  life on the high end goddess energy,  lioness transcend Gatspy party  you attend champagne on ice, sparkling  under the black nightlight matte black  limousine,  iced latte  with  creamer vanilla bean So tell me lioness,  why are you in distress? What’s the secret  you’re awaiting to confess? don’t want to be in  the papers by the press Lioness, respectfully  the quietest, speaks by body language,  graciously undress too much information  to give to reader’s digest Lioness, it’s okay if you’ve  been feeling depressed everybody is at some point,  forget there’s anyone to impress you can be honest with  yourself, love yourself, become an artist for  your self’s wealth you’re worthy  enough,  forgive the karma  you’ve been dealt - Leah Rae

 you can fall into  the  wholeness of my arms although I have a small body, I will bless you with angelic charms I promise you will be safe, whether we’re inside or outside everything happens for a reason, and our happiness feels right I will protect you, in our  house  and in our silence,  come out of the dark, turn away your shyness I tell you  that you’ll be safe with my soft voice and deep eyes I’d do anything for you, my vow to ride or die to take away your hurt and heal your wounds all with this very powerful word trust, trust, trust; in me, in  in our love this time right now seems so damn tough, but I am here, always by your side to be safe in  your mind, and soon our own  cozy studio place to be safe, and slow  down your heart rate when  it beats at  a rapid pace I’ll sing you to sleep, I’ll hold you as you weep to be safe, I’ll always  stay here for you  you will always  have me,  no matter wh...

I rode a bike without any air in the front tire,  but that did not  stop me the back wheel was  shaking so bad that  it made the ride  even more rickety going so fast without  any brakes that I nearly ran into a tree, I avoided it and proceeded traveling perpendicular to the  cracks on the concrete I stopped myself from getting hurt in that moment because the faith in my gut has never felt so potent the fight or flight response kicked in and kept me from laying dormant, and it helped when I drove in a new car becoming cautious  and more confident there’s been plentiful times I’ve wanted to take away that awful same feeling before, but you can’t prevent  those  things from happening they come busting through the door they yell into your face as you back slowly into  a corner, with a tail tucked behind your legs I welcomed you into our home, with lit candles and  cafe music on display maybe it was  a mistake, but it was nece...

we’re heading  out  now,  I take off  my shoes  for the drive home,   I also took off my  socks and had   bare legs from the knees down  the only clothing  article I wore was a  large men’s  button up, but beware, the next part to this  was sudden and abrupt we stopped at  the  gas station to   get  some drinks, hot  chips,  and sour candy you said that the  more you chew it,  the more your  tastebuds  will be reacting I had three pieces of candy  and half full left of my drink, what happens  after that isn’t anything  you’d ever think still no shoes,  dirt on my feet, on my hands,  and in my hair I only could see that there  was ragweed everywhere blood on my knees,  on the side of my cheek,  my whole  body  falling weak there was no time  to lose, no time to think I looked up to the sky  that night, it was so...