LRAE Poetry

you were born to run  and born to create born to ask questions and  born to make mistakes you are everything between  your misplaced pieces,  to be  torn apart and sewn back together your surface seems soft,  but it's as strong as leather your heart has healed   with it’s own stitches  and it’s all because  your destiny is a  clear visi on and with every time  that is left unnoticed  leaves you feeling weary, drowned out, and hopeless one moment  will  always  be  a good time  to mention into the chapter of  memories you keep, add those into  your collection - Leah Rae

the tunnel dims  to darkness  all of my hopes  cannot be promised like a settlement that takes  many phone calls to receive blood bleeds green, seems like  that’s what the system sees gasping for air, it’s not just  the nose that is impaired fighting for equality,  what is right and fair now that's not the only thing  crooked running from the repercussions, I booked it and I kept running  until my knees ached like I’m in a marathon those plans I once had,  now appear far gone grasping for strength  because God wants me to be the strongest  of them all and from what I’ve  learned  since I was born,  is that I’ve been raised to fall and endure the dirt  that comes my way burying me down to  make me feel small - Leah Rae

hold me in  your arms promise that I  won’t break I tell you that  I’m strong, but honestly, I keep  my heart in a protected case I water my stems  like flowers in a vase afraid that it’ll drop  to the ground and break Glass on glass, Shiny and shimmery, make forever last Smoke on smoke, Hazy and white Hold me in your arms As I sleep all through the night - Leah Rae

It’s a song, it’s a poem,  written in the look of my face   It’s all the things that  want to release from my brain,  the picture I  want to trace The ideas I want  to make,  the motivation for change because I can’t stay in the  same place for too long I get cabin fever, my  rhymes get weaker  on the tip of my tongue,  I’m a brutal thinker    A tangent speaker and  Quotation repeater  busting out of my skull  are these notes I wish to put together,  but the pieces fall apart  too quickly to remember  My attention span blows  away as if it was soft like sand Procrastination, my  enemy, gives me too many reasons to withhold my plans and all of this might  seem  very difficult for someone else to understand, Although I know I can  make it on my own Reflecting back on  my successful milestones I’m still learning to toss  these rocks that have kept me down  ...

like smiling into  the sunlight or reading  while it rains fogging up the windows and getting frostbite wondering about  the fingerprint stains the windows  are fogging up I can feel the  cold coming, but I have hope that  the sun will rise  back up in  the morning  - Leah Rae

coming up the  steep road tsunami waves  tremble down going closer  towards it, I can’t turn  back around if that was the last  moment I’ve seen,   I remember the sky  was split in halves and that’d be  what my  final  memory is going down as one side was indigo  with a bright full moon the other is the sun shining  with faded orange maroon and the waves  were falling  over  each other,   a cool breeze during the night of a hot summer inside the ocean  of living creatures,  with some  we’d  never know, like prehistoric animals  that lived long ago I made it out by  putting  up walls  around my soul because if I didn’t,  the  water would’ve  swallowed  me whole - Leah Rae

I’m swallowing  the dagger my talking is  s ounding like blabber here it comes,  the anxious teeth chatter it’s about a hundred  degrees and my body  feels like I dipped  into a river it’s not so cold,  but I start to shiver then here is comes,  the nervous laughter,  until finally I get comfortable  and tell you the  hopes I have for  my future of   what I’m going after - Leah Rae

every night I  dreamt of Blue and the idea behind it  was  that I went looking for you. searching for a thought,  a person, a place, all I had was one clue,  and I  realized it was  nothing I had  to chase we met together, the  same moment and time clear streets, a second  of  peace, and the glow  of the  moonlight Was blue the color  of  his  energy or the color of his soul? never met anyone like  him before, he’s the one  who broke  the mold helped me find my  heights and face my fears he guided a safe ride  and brought me here - Leah Rae

to a place that I know,  where I am comfortable no arguments or  harsh words said, no rebuttal where there is my dog  and a bed to rest I’ve been everywhere on the roads,  even survived the airbag test  walking to the park with  overalls and dandelions in my pocket making wishes as I go,  roaming the grass and running frolic  yellow and gold painted before my eyes sipping on strawberry  lemonade skies wrapped around the  culdesac where the sidewalk bends happiness is a virtue,  that’s why my soul depends  on the clouds to keep blowing, ashes in the air,  it’s been so hot that  the ground is scorching  so I pick up my dog or  her feet will be blistered, carry her on my shoulder  the rest of the way,  I feel the poking of her whiskers  thinking to myself,  how many times have  I heard this song?  keep it on repeat because  I want this moment to last long - Leah Rae

you’ve left my limbs frozen  like they’ve been in the back of a refrigerator talk to me like a friend  you’ve known forever,  I’m not a stranger never would I want to  put you in harms way,  I’ll protect you from all danger the trauma always lingers, more times than I could  count on my fingers shiver it away, make it feel better put a compress on my heart  that’s as cold as the glaciers I’ll always leave you  room to speak, I’ll  put  up the spacers but I need you right now,  could you do me a favor? shiver it all away,  wipe the icicles off your face I’ll keep cool just in  case you need someone  there to make you feel safe shiver it away, I give  you time and space  memory can’t be  erased and  I’m sorry, soon it will fade put down the  double edged blade  I promise you,  I will always stay -Leah Rae 

I move mountains  for those in my life,  always have been  loyal to those I love but sometimes I  don’t have anyone  there for me, nobody  with  as thick as my blood I’ve had to hold myself  through the worst, I’ve felt so horrible  that  I thought I was cursed putting in my all, y et  my  back is always covered in stabs how deeply I can feel so good, how deeper I can feel so bad, when I feel my best, it’s  never the best I could feel I’ve always lived in  my dreams because reality doesn’t  seem real I could change  how I look,  take pictures of  my beautiful visions and still get no  response out  of them, Please, could someone finally listen? I have in my palms the Earth  and water,  I have tried to be  the best daughter the best friend,  the best lover, and the mountains  seem  far out of reach, trying to keep  climbing  but my feet are slipping ...

Lioness, coated in diamonds you like to live  life on the high end goddess energy,  lioness transcend Gatspy party  you attend champagne on ice, sparkling  under the black nightlight matte black  limousine,  iced latte  with  creamer vanilla bean So tell me lioness,  why are you in distress? What’s the secret  you’re awaiting to confess? don’t want to be in  the papers by the press Lioness, respectfully  the quietest, speaks by body language,  graciously undress too much information  to give to reader’s digest Lioness, it’s okay if you’ve  been feeling depressed everybody is at some point,  forget there’s anyone to impress you can be honest with  yourself, love yourself, become an artist for  your self’s wealth you’re worthy  enough,  forgive the karma  you’ve been dealt - Leah Rae

 you can fall into  the  wholeness of my arms although I have a small body, I will bless you with angelic charms I promise you will be safe, whether we’re inside or outside everything happens for a reason, and our happiness feels right I will protect you, in our  house  and in our silence,  come out of the dark, turn away your shyness I tell you  that you’ll be safe with my soft voice and deep eyes I’d do anything for you, my vow to ride or die to take away your hurt and heal your wounds all with this very powerful word trust, trust, trust; in me, in  in our love this time right now seems so damn tough, but I am here, always by your side to be safe in  your mind, and soon our own  cozy studio place to be safe, and slow  down your heart rate when  it beats at  a rapid pace I’ll sing you to sleep, I’ll hold you as you weep to be safe, I’ll always  stay here for you  you will always  have me,  no matter wh...

I rode a bike without any air in the front tire,  but that did not  stop me the back wheel was  shaking so bad that  it made the ride  even more rickety going so fast without  any brakes that I nearly ran into a tree, I avoided it and proceeded traveling perpendicular to the  cracks on the concrete I stopped myself from getting hurt in that moment because the faith in my gut has never felt so potent the fight or flight response kicked in and kept me from laying dormant, and it helped when I drove in a new car becoming cautious  and more confident there’s been plentiful times I’ve wanted to take away that awful same feeling before, but you can’t prevent  those  things from happening they come busting through the door they yell into your face as you back slowly into  a corner, with a tail tucked behind your legs I welcomed you into our home, with lit candles and  cafe music on display maybe it was  a mistake, but it was nece...

we’re heading  out  now,  I take off  my shoes  for the drive home,   I also took off my  socks and had   bare legs from the knees down  the only clothing  article I wore was a  large men’s  button up, but beware, the next part to this  was sudden and abrupt we stopped at  the  gas station to   get  some drinks, hot  chips,  and sour candy you said that the  more you chew it,  the more your  tastebuds  will be reacting I had three pieces of candy  and half full left of my drink, what happens  after that isn’t anything  you’d ever think still no shoes,  dirt on my feet, on my hands,  and in my hair I only could see that there  was ragweed everywhere blood on my knees,  on the side of my cheek,  my whole  body  falling weak there was no time  to lose, no time to think I looked up to the sky  that night, it was so...